I went to the Henry tonight to see a film
about the Herbert Bayer Earthworks in Kent. Before the screening, a cellist named Paul Rucker played a piece that he said would evoke the Earthworks. It was moving.
A couple minutes into the music, I decided that there is no sound as sublime as a single cello played as well as Paul Rucker was playing it. Moreover, I was taken with the idea that I may never have heard a better piece for cello than the piece this cellist was playing at this moment.
I resisted the temptation to take out my iPhone to attempt to record what I was hearing. If I was walking or having a good glass of wine or seeing a movie, sure, I could take the device out and tweet and snap a pic or record a video or whatever - that's how I roll and that's the edge I use to lean into the moment. But this was a cello and here was an artist and I had to allow that there yet might be some place in the world for an antiquated singular attentiveness to be a valid means of experience.
He then hit a stretch so profound my better instinct prevailed and I pulled out the iPhone and hit record on the voice memo app. I only caught the last minute 47 seconds. It was largely pizzicato, and I was disappointed because I don't care for pizzicato. I shrugged the disappointment off. When the end credits for the movie rolled, I googled his name and figured out where I might find his music.
I should have recorded from 10 seconds into the piece. Because it wasn't a piece. It was an improvisation. And the AV person at the Henry who meant to record it had technical issues, and missed it.
I learned this from Paul Rucker himself. I met him at the reception following the movie, and asked him the name of his piece. "'Earthworks,' I guess," he said. He had made it up as he went. His friend or girlfriend next to him explained, "he does this all the time." Paul Rucker added, "That one's gone, I guess; it was one of a kind."
The recording would not have been it. Some recordings are it, mind you: a cassette tape recording of Bartok's Second Piano Concerto was it and, after my then-wife erased it to spite me, I went through seemingly every recording of it ever published, but never found it again.
But I was there, tonight, for the one-time-only performance of Earthworks, an improvisation for single cello by Paul Rucker. I was mostly there. I'm getting better at being in one place. There is no settled method for that, however. Not for me.